It's a boy!!

Jude August

Wed. Oct 29

9 pounds 2 ounces

Soccer

I am sorry about the depressing message last blog. I'm over feeling sorry for myself. If the baby comes before Joel is done with the film I don't have to be pregnant anymore and if not then Joel will be there for the birth. Either way I am a winner! 

Here are some photos from Adelle's soccer game. She loves playing goalie. It is crazy. She likes to actually put her face down close to where other people are kicking. She is getting pretty tough too. I expected her to start crying the first time that she got hit but she has really surprised me. She is a pretty good goalie and requests to play there part of every game. 

No matter how tired the girls are during the game they always have the energy to run through the victory tunnel after the game. One of these games we will have a victory. We tied this last game so we are getting closer! 

Proverbs 3:5

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

This verse has been running through my head all week as the time for Joel to start shooting his thesis has drawn closer and no baby has been born. I told him that if the 22nd came and went without me giving birth I would have a mental break down. And I did. Now that it is over I feel a lot better. It is a humbling thing to realize that you really have no control over when you give birth. Somehow with the last two I thought I did. It is a frustrating thing to have what you think are righteous prayers not be answered, like having your husband with you when giving birth. So I have spent some time this week  being angry with God, with this unborn child,  and with every person that makes any comment about me stilling being pregnant. But now that I am faced with only the worst two possibilities I can deal with it. The worst being either giving birth without Joel or being pregnant for 12 more days until he is done shooting his thesis. Granted that would only put me a week overdue but considering I've never gone past 38 weeks, 41 weeks seems like a long time. Especially when the Santa Ana winds have struck again bringing 90+ degree weather and really annoying allergies. But all these things shall give me experience, and shall be for my good right? So we will keep you posted.